November 22, 2010
Why this blog?
I have started this blog simply to write about this crazy path that God has allowed me to follow. It is a scary, painful path.
About a month ago, while training for a 1/2 marathon, my knee started bothering me. I thought it was just from the running. Then, my right ankle and my right hip started hurting, also. Soon after, my wrists started hurting. Now, the pain is in most of my major joints. My fingers hurt also, but usually only when it's cold.
I started out going to see a chiropractor who really takes into account whole health. I was hopeful. However, a couple weeks into it, I still can't accomplish everyday, normal, mom-of-4 activities. Some days I can barely walk.
Last week, about 3 weeks into this craziness, I finally started realizing this pain may become a long-term reality. I began calling upon some prayer warriors to lift me up in prayer. I also was referred to an Internal Medicine doctor. Even though it didn't sound like he was accepting new patients, an appointment was made for just 3 days later.
On Wednesday, November 17, I had a mini-meltdown at worship band practice. My limitations were becoming more and more clear. Just walking from the youth room to the sanctuary seemed like running a marathon. By the time I got to the sanctuary, I felt crippled. I was leading practice, so I went ahead and told the praise team what was happening to my body. We ended practice by them surrounding me and praying over me. They also lined up some meals for my family. I felt blessed, and relieved.
On Friday, November 19, Mike, Caden, and I headed to Tulsa to see Dr. Hubner. I was blessed by his thoroughness and kindness. He didn't just blow me off and tell me the pain must just be all in my head. He told me that we would get down to the bottom of this but that it could be a long process. He told me that people who are diagnosed with auto-immune diseases go on to live full, long, active lives. We sent me to the lab where I had 10 vials of blood drawn. It took both arms because the first vein stopped giving any blood.
So, I should hear some results today or tomorrow.
In the meantime, I am waiting. Although it is so hard, I am trusting my heavenly Father. He is sovereign and good. This isn't surprising Him. He has a plan. I believe Him.
The name of the blog came from James 1:
Consider it pure joy my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith, develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work, so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
Perseverance must finish its work so that I will be mature and complete in my heavenly Father.
(btw, I am putting on a brave front, I will elaborate on some other meltdowns in future posts.)
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